The Autumn Equinox is a significant time of year to honor the harvest. Whether that be a harvest of the things you physically planted or the harvest of your spiritual, emotional, and mental work and intentions for your life path and healing that you set for yourself.
ancient cultures perceived a powerful deeper message for humanity in the cycles of life and nature and in the changing seasons. Indigenous cultures recognized elemental wisdom and understood that the Winter Solstice, Spring Equinox, Summer Solstice, and Autumn Equinox; illuminated stages of an inner spiritual journey – a spiritual cycle that the individual takes within themselves. They often celebrated these cycles.
The autumn equinox arrives on Wednesday, September 22, 2021. Spiritually speaking, fall represents the Harvest time of year, a time to acknowledge growth and expansion within our beings. We honor the cycles of our lives and the journey we are on.
On the Fall Equinox you may want to honor all that you have in your life and shift your consciousness from one of something you are fearful or avoidant of to stepping into courage to expand into a space of truth and authenticity. This will give us space as we head to the winter solstice to rest and grow into this space of truth to step fully into it in the spring equinox and summer solstice. Honor the autumn equinox today through a small ritual or ceremony. Such as lighting a candle, giving thanks, and speaking your gratitude for all that you are. 💛Rev Jessica Kozak Shaw
We are living in turbulent times. Those of us who are Empath’s are feeling everything. In my practice I am having clients who never identified as empaths having a hard time filtering out the chaos. The energy surrounding and within our world is very out of balance as most of us know. It is hard to shield ourselves in this environment without fully isolating and ignoring everything. My guides give me an image of myself underwater in a shark cage as a Great White keeps ramming into it.
The cage would represent my protective boundary and the Great White the Chaos of the world continually battering against the shield. While the shield holds I am getting rattled around and shaken. I think many of us are feeling this way. An anxiety we can’t shake. Some of my clients describe it as a feeling of impending doom.
We are witnessing much that we have zero control over so now it is very important to focus on our personal lives, families and navigating ourselves into the calm center of the storm. In that calm center we anchor into our own peaceful center.
Here are some survival steps for getting to your calm center.
Limit your exposure to the media/news. I feel it is important to stay informed and not be ignorant to what is happening but to surround ourselves in it to much makes it appear the whole world is on fire and burning. Fear and helplessness takes over and nothing good comes of that. There are still also good things happening in the world! Creating a balance is helpful. I make a point to read about something uplifting when I need a break. We all need a break! 💛
Add an extra layer to your energy Bubble! Now is the time for reinforcements lol. I have had to add an extra layer of protection around my daily energy field. I also have stabilized it with anchors to hold it steady to the ground so it won’t shake from the chaos as much. I am able to move through the emotions I feel much faster and navigate what is mine and what is not. I may have to reinforce it more often than usual but that is ok. What ever you use to shield yourself add some extra reinforcements.
Rest and Self-Care – Sometimes Self Care Feels like a chore and resting feels impossible. It won’t work if it feels like a chore or too much effort. Now more than ever we are feeling more tired and drained. Simple tools like a nice walk outside in nature, a soak in a hot bath with epsom salt, a shower with a salt scrub, or even just 5-mins of deep breathing can make a big difference. Even certain chores like washing the dishes can shut the mind off and be meditative. I don’t like washing dishes but something about the water running and the mindlessness of it calms the mind. Coloring, painting, reading books are other ways of turning the mind off. A little bit of self-care and rest will go a long way. Don’t burden yourself with an endless task list of self-care requests then feel guilty when you don’t meet all the demands. It is self-defeating. This is a time of being gentle with one-self.
Here is Prayer you can use to help yourself during this time. You can rewrite to fit your own personal spiritual expression.
Holy Spirit of Universe shield and protect me in your healing energy. Assist me in letting go of heavy emotions and triggers I allow to my energy in today’s chaotic world. Move through my mind body and spirit bringing healing light to all things unbalanced and return me to my center. Forgiving myself and others for any misguided perceptions and returning back to right mindedness in present time. As I move forward one step at a time be my light in the dark guiding my steps allowing me to shine brightly in the darkness. Releasing fear of the unknown, of chaos, and darkness. Bring me back into my own personal truth and purpose for this life.
Thank You, And so It is ❤️
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The past year ended with my testing positive for Covid-19 on Friday Dec 18, 2020. The day before, while doing a virtual session via zoom, I had what felt like a coughing fit as if I was choking on my own saliva. It felt odd and weird. It felt like a ticklish choking sensation that wouldn’t go away. I grabbed some cough drops, which allowed me some relief, so I could finish the session. Oddly, this weird cough didn’t go away. Acouple of hours later, after my last virtual session, I said to my husband that I felt very tired, queasy and I needed to sit down. When I took my temperature and saw I had a temp of 100.3, I was not surprised. As the evening wore on, massive body aches,a headache and an upset stomach came upon me. I went to bed hoping for the best but fearing the worse. In the morning I felt even sicker so I cancelled my day of clients and called my doctor. At this point I was really hoping I picked up a bug but that it wasn’t Covid-19.
I am very careful at The Soul Purpose where I enforced a strict protocol of mask wearing, disinfection, temp checking, and handwashing/In my personal life, I limit my contact to immediate family and I am extremely careful when I go out. I do not go out to eat, out for drinks or socializing…ever. It is because of my cautious measures that I am perplexed as to where I could have picked up any kind of bug, let alone Covid-19, but I did. After thinking back to the previous 8 days, taking inventory of where I had been – The Soul Purpose, CVS, the grocery store and home– I remain unsure of where I contracted this miserable virus. As I waited for my doctor’s call I replayed my recent whereabouts over and over in my mind.
When my doctor called me, she identified my symptoms as Covid-19. It was that direct. So she arranged for a test that sameday and warned me the results would take a few days to come back. I immediately quarantined as did my husband and daughter. When the realization of what was happening hit me I became fearful for my loved ones, especially those that live with me. I was also worried that I had unknowingly exposed any number of people to this novel virus. Anxiety led to visions of ruining Christmas for my family and other people’s families. Soon I was desperate to do something proactive, anything to fight back!
I pulled out my essential oils and deferred to my clinical aromatherapy and herbal training. Determined to keep this virus at bay, I set up my diffuser using blends of Clove, Cinnamon, Eucalyptus, Ravensara and Thyme to blast throughout the house.I also started drinking 2 quarts of herbal tea a day including nettle leaf, hyssop, mullein leaf and skullcap.
I then reviewed my vitamins and supplements. I had been on Vitamin C, D and Zinc as a preventative but my doctor made modifications. My daily Vitamin D went up to 5000 IU, Vitamin C (Ester C) up to 2000 (anymore would upset my stomach) and she upped me to 100mg of Zinc. I was also put on baby aspirin as a precaution, Zyrtec, Mucinex, and Pepcid.
Through the weekend I suffered with a fever, again reaching as high as 103 degrees. I experienced severe body aches, leg pain, the worst headache I have ever experienced, vomiting, nausea, diarrhea, chest pressure and crippling fatigue. Sounds like a lot of fun doesn’t it? While I suffered these miseries it occurred to me I had never experienced anything like this before. This sickness felt so very different with its random symptoms popping up unpredictably. Throughout these days I kept up with my healing protocol including self-healing and having friends, colleagues and students sending me healing energy as well. I could barely eat (only small amounts of oatmeal) so I stayed focused on my hydration. I managed to keep small amounts of oatmeal in.
On Monday, December 21st, the phone call from my doctor brought news that I tested positive for Covid-19. I was not surprised but it still felt like a punch to the gut when reality hit. I was instructed to continue with the medical instructions I was previously given and to keep isolating. I have to admit my mind went a bit off kilter when I thought about how I had the novel virus and how freaky and weird it was. And then the panic hit when my doctor recommended my husband and daughter get tested. My daughter had some nausea and body aches but otherwise she was okay…or was she? My husband seemed fine but…. Thankfully both of their tests came back negative and they remain virus free to this day.
I don’t know how my husband and daughter didn’t catch the virus as we live in a relatively small house and share one bathroom. Yes, we were careful but so are other people in this situation and they do not fare as well. I do believe it was the diffuser of essential oils that I had going constantly. This is not something that people who are not Aromatherapists would think to do and, in my mind, it made a difference. Also, as an herbalist, I made them drink herbal infused tea regularly. And they too were put on a new regiment of supplements.
The next thing in the Covid-19 experience is contact tracing. I learned through contact tracing that every person I contacted during the 8 days before I became symptomatic did not have this virus. I also learned that no one contracted it from me. This experience reminded me of just how many people we contact in our regular lives without really thinking about it. My anxiety level decreased considerably as soon as I knew that I did not inadvertently sicken anyone. That is a huge relief to me.
I often think about where I caught Covid-19 but I still do not know. I caught it somewhere and I can speculate about whereuntil the cows come home, but I will never really know for sure. They categorize a case like mine as “community spread.” I just call it mystifying. However, knowing that I did not spread it any further is something I do know and it is this glimmering light that I try to focus on in my darkest moments.
It took about 7 days for me to start to feel some relief from my mixed bag of symptoms which just happened to be Christmas Day (A small Christmas miracle in my mind).I had a bit of anappetite and, overall my peaceful day home with just my immediate family was as good as could be expected. From that point, my symptoms started to get a little better each day with the exception of the fatigue. The fatigue did not lessen at all no matter how much I rested. This was both frustrating and disappointing (and still is).
About a week later, on Jan 2nd, I started to feel crummy again. Back came the body aches. I also had tightness and pressure in my chest with a cough and pain in the diaphragm and ribs. Afever popped up again and my heart rate became elevated. I had heard about cases where the sickness got better before coming back full force and I feared this was happening to me. It was a tough night – physically and mentally.
The next day I put a call into my doctor and she had a great many questions. Her concern was that I had developed pneumonia. Apparently that is how my body was acting; with signs of an infection mixed with classic Covid-19 symptoms. She prescribed an antibiotic and a rescue inhaler. She wanted me to keep in touch and urged me to go to the hospital if my breathing became more problematic. She commented thatbecause I have no secondary health conditions and I am overall a very healthy 45 year old woman that these things work in my favor. I guess this was her way of giving me inspiration.
Fast forward 3 days and my symptoms are worsening. This, I know, is not a good sign. I find it painful to breathe, as if I am wearing a corset that has been laced way too tight. My sternumfeels bruised, like someone had kicked me. My chest feels like there is an elephant standing on it. My fever is 101 and my lymph nodes are so swollen I have pain in my groin, neck, and jaw bone. I have leg pain that is so intense it keeps me from sleeping. Once again, I call the doctor. After she consults apulmonologist she tells me to go to the Emergency Room as there is concern that I have had a Covid-19 relapse including an infection. There is also concern about blood clots; another covid-19 complication. My oxygen levels, while not great, were not in the danger zone which gave me some relief. To calm myself I practice the deep meditative breathing techniques I use in meditation and while performing Reiki.
The 6 hour long Emergency Room is a story in itself. While there I struggle with a fever, elevated pulse and high blood pressure (which is unusual for me).I look around and see other people in the same condition that I am inand get a firsthand experience in whatit is like being part of a pandemic. For tests Iwas given an EKG, chest x-ray, and lots of blood was taken. My vitals were taken several times. After an extremely long and uncomfortable wait I finally meet with a Nurse Practitioner and Physician. They explain to me that my x-ray shows I have pneumonia and also what they call “Covid Spots”. “That’s just wonderful”, I think to myself. I learn my EKG is normal (yeah)and my bloodwork shows that I don’t have blood clots or any heart issues (whew).My blood work does show, however, I havean elevated white blood cell count which means I am fighting off a bacterial infection. She tells me they believe I have developed bacterial pneumonia and “Post Covid Syndrome”. I am like “Okayyyyy so what is Post CovidSyndrome ?????”
Not everyone develops Post Covid Syndrome which means I have earned another statistical designation in the pandemic. I am about to learn what this means. (breathe in Jess, count, and release. Stay calm. Positive thoughts.)Rather than medical mumbo jumbo they cut right to the chase, Post Covid Syndrome is when someone continues to struggle with Covid symptoms because their immune system is over-reacting to the virus. This over-reaction causes a lot of inflammation and problems. So, they put me on a stronger antibiotic for the infection and a 5-day round of the steroid “Decadron” to help calm things down. They also tell me to continue the deep breathing technique even if it isuncomfortable as they are convinced that this is the main reason I was able to keep my oxygen level out of the danger zone.(Yeah, holistic healing methods!)I must admit I gloated a bit to see the doctors so impressed by my technique. Then came the usual… stay on all the supplements and meds my doctor had me taking, rest…blah, blah, blah. I also was continuing the herbal protocol but added in a tincture of pleurisy root and marshmallow. I changed my essential oil blend to “ Respir-aid”from plant therapy which includes oils such as peppermint, eucalyptus, cypress, pine and marjoram in a cool mist humidifier.
After 24 hours I did feel better. I still felt wiped out and exhausted but had no fever. The discomfort in my diaphragm was also considerably better. The steroids were working their magic! I was still not myself but I could breathe without discomfort. My doctor urged me to continue to rest as she was worried about a relapse due to an overworked immune system.So I continued to rest and do my best to get sleep.
The 5 days I was on the steroids were fine. Things were looking up. I finished them on Saturday 1/9/21. Then, on Sunday 1/10/21, my symptoms started to return. Back came the fever, shortness of breath and diaphragmatic pain and discomfort. My heart rate became elevated again. My exhaustion was getting more severe. I had a headache with inflamed lymph nodes in the neck. The Covid monster was back and I was frustrated. My hopes of recovery were slipping away fast and I could no longer see an end to my difficult journey. I was again advised to go to the ER if my condition worsened; I was determined not to.
Come Wednesday I am back on a telehealth session. This time I am put on a steroid inhaler with hopes that this will help. My friends also sent me some powerful energy healing virtually with energy that I firmly believe helped me. (I wonder what those ER doctors would think about this!)
As of now I am still running low grade temps and dealing with serious fatigue. By the afternoon, breathing becomes a bit toughbut my oxygen and pulse monitoring show I am doing fine. And yes, I faithfully do my breathing exercises. I am resting and continue to use steamy aromatherapy showers and herbal baths. I am now using Frankincense essential oil which helps the inflamed tissue of my respiratory tract. I speak to my doctor regularly…it seems they keep tabs on Covid patients. Although I am not exactly better I am no longer getting worse or backsliding which I am extremely grateful for. I am hopeful and feel lucky. Yes, I absolutely know, it could have been worse.
Why am I sharing all this? I wanted to share my Covid experience because it is such a lonely and frightening experience but it doesn’t need to be. Anyone who reads this will realize that Covid patients share many of the same symptoms, problems, complications and fears. We feel helpless because this illness is frustratingly unpredictable. We are all scared for our loved ones with a tinge of guilt that we brought it into the home. We all rejoice if no one gets sick from us and are all broken-up if someone does get sick. We all know this virus is not like the flu or regular pneumonia even if some people insist that it is. Those of us that suffer with Covid -19 are not alone or helpless, we are fighters battling an illness that little is known about. That makes us warriors!
As a professional in the holistic medical field, I feel this virus leaves no room for friction between the holistic wellness vs. allopathic world. This virus requires us to combine all our knowledge and experience together to bring about the best healing we can find. This virus is unusual and not yet well understood. For some reason it is gentle on some people and wreaks havoc on others. It is because it is so new and different that we must look toward different methods of healing with an open mind. If not now, if not during this horrendous pandemic, then when?
For the record, I am not a purist nor do I claim to be nutritionally superior because I take supplements and herbs. I do not claim my immune system is more efficient than the average persons because I am an Aromatherapist. After all, if I had the ability to be a superwoman I would never have gotten the virus, right? No, I eat relatively healthy and integrate herbs and supplements into my regular health protocol. I am currently not on meds but am not averse to taking them if needed. I get annual medical and dental checkups. I also get regular acupuncture and energy healings. I am just an ordinary person who owns and practices as a Spiritual Healer and Holistic Energy Medicine Practitioner, at The Soul Purpose in Swansea, MA. I run a holistic wellness center and I believe…no, I know… we have a lot to offer!
During this harrowing medical journey, I’ve received lots of messages from well-meaning people. Some gave me much appreciated support and reassurance. Others offered advice or shared their own experiences. Oddly, some people asked why I felt I “attracted” this virus! Well, I do not know how I got the virus and I certainly didn’t go about looking for it but it found me somehow. Although I am a healthy person I am not immune from illness and, perhaps, it was just meant to be.
Of course, being positive minded I have found the silver lining in this experience!• Being unable to work during this time of chaos in our country, has given me time to reflect on things that I ordinarily would not have time to think about.• Not having any distractions aside from being ill has allowed me to be quiet and meditative – another reflective opportunity I value greatly.• I have been able to use, test and tweak my own self-healing modalities.• I have been able to ask for help and support – something I find difficult to do and need practice at doing!• I have been able to really discern how valuable my energy is and how easily it can be drained.• I have witnessed people’s fear and anxieties grow to unbelievable levels, becoming a super prominent focus in our country on so many different levels and for a range ofreasons. This has allowed me to think about ways to ease people’s fears and anxieties through spiritual and holistic healing. It has reminded me that The Soul Purpose has much work yet to do. I have been reminded about whom and what is important and that is the biggest gift of all.
Finally, I leave you with advice. I recommend, aside from caring for your personal health and making choices that work best for you, that you begin or continue practicing self-healing. For me it was deep meditative breathing, for you it may be something different. I recommend you practice safety, eat well, rest and be spiritual. I think essential oils and herbs help. Meditation, self-hypnosis and prayer are always good. Energy medicine, reiki, acupuncture….try it all!
As for me, I fall into a small percentage of patients (about 10%)that seem to develop Post Covid-19 syndrome. I will recover. I plan to incorporate my experience and the techniques that have helped me cope with this virus in my work including myaromatherapy and herbal programs, as well as, my meditation and self-hypnosis monthly classes. I will keep spreading the word through my many classes about holistic and spiritual healing (available in person or on zoom) only now I hold myself up as an example! I will share all I know. I will continue to stress that holistic and spiritual healing is not a replacement for medicine, but rather, is to be used in conjunction with it. I will continue to certify more people so they can teach others. And, someday and somewhere, just maybe there will be a diffuser in an intensive care unit puffing out an essential oil blend with lavender and mandarin so that the patients in the ward can get some much needed sleep!
note: The picture is of East Beach in Westport that I took last weekend. My husband brought me to breathe in the salty air which really helped my lungs 💖
Gift Certs make great stocking stuffers for the holidays! We will be available at The Soul Purpose for Gift Cert sales from 1:00-2:30PM this Sat Dec 5. Our door is locked due to Covid-19 protocol but we will see you. You can also email firstname.lastname@example.org and let us know what time you will be coming or to schedule another time to pick one up. We can also mail them or email them to you. Gift Certificates can be redeemed with our practitioner services and any class at The Soul Purpose. 💚❤️💚❤️💚🎄🎅🏻🎁 #soulpurposeswansea #giftcertificates #happyholidays #seasonsgreetings2020
There is a lot of hype going on about the Novel CoronaVirus known as Covid-19. I wanted to discuss how to protect from viruses like Covid-19 and also the flu which is also going around. I find I always feel better when I am prepared. Aromatherapy can be quite effective in treating and preventing illness along with being supportive and healing while sick. I did have the flu a month ago. It was brought home by my daughter who caught it at a school fair and she proceeded to sneeze directly into my face uncontrollably. I knew in that moment regardless of what I used or did I would catch it so I used aromatherapy to support us and prevent us from getting any secondary infection.
1) Wash hands thoroughly and often with good old soap and water
2) Make your own hand sanitizer with Vodka, Colloidal Silver, Aloe Vera, and essential oils that are antiviral
3) Make a cleaning and disinfecting spray using vinegar and water with essential oils and cleanse surfaces, etc multiple times a day in your home, work space etc
4)Diffusers are our best weapon for killing airborne viruses and treating respiratory illnesses. I have many diffusers and I recommend using them at this time in your home to kill virus bugs and support the immune system.
**please be mindful of your pets and children when using essential oils. They should always be diluted and diffusers should not be located directly near your pets especially with the super bug killing essential oils as they are harsher. If someone is ill and you are using a diffuser with the super bug killer it is best to keep your pets out of this room. Pets will also walk away from a diffuser if it is to strong for them. Just be mindful.**
A diffuser works best if it turns on every 15mins with a timer and diffuses for a minute. You would need to get a timer for most diffusers.
Here is my list of essential oils and you can order therapeutic practitioner grade oils from www.planttherapy.com and www.dreamingearth.com
I like Sovereign Silver Colloidal Silver
Super Bug Killer oils a little goes a long way and never use undiluted: Lemongrass Cinnamon Clove Oregano Thyme
Expectorant and Antiviral Oils: Ravensara Eucalyptus Tea Tree (multipurpose bug killer)
Oils that soothe an inflamed respiratory tract: Cedarwood Frankincense Pine Spruce Balsam Fir Benzoin
Oils that support secondary bacterial infections and kill bacteria: Rosemary Peppermint Lavender Lemon
**Eucalyptus, Lavender, Cedarwood, Tea Tree, Lemon , Benzoin are safer less harsh oils to use around small children and Elderly.
If I am going to be dealing with a super bug I will have the harsh oils on hand and will use them safely and responsibly. When used safely and responsibly they actually work most effectively and typically with no contraindications or negative impact.
Do not ingest essential oils they are 75-100x stronger than the plant, fruit, herb they are derived from. If you take anything internally keep it to herbs and supplements.
NOTE: This blog post does not constitute medical advice, I am simply sharing what I have learned about various holistic remedies that may help prevent CoronaVirus. Consult a medical doctor immediately if you develop symptoms.
Read this recent article as it appeared in The Herald News about our exciting expansion:
SWANSEA — Blending her business and spiritual sides, Jessica Kozak has been expanding Soul Purpose, a haven for the soul, for years in the Swansea area. Yoga, starting on Jan. 6, is her newest offering to compliment a wide spanning spiritual menu that dabbles in everything from meditation to psychic development. “It’s a holistic educational center, and a wellness center,” Kozak said. “We’re really excited.” Her physical location at LaPointe Plaza, 1225 GAR Highway, will also change. But Soul Purpose won’t go far. It will be in a bigger space in the same plaza. “It’s been exciting and scary,” said Kozak, who started her business in 2005 in an in-law apartment in Dighton. “We’ve grown so much. It challenges you to take a chance on your vision and yourself.” From Dighton, she moved to a site in Somerset, which she “outgrew in a year,” and then to a 750-foot location in her current plaza. She moved to a 1,400-foot unit about six years ago, and when construction is finished, she’ll take up a new storefront with 2,200 square feet inside. “I helped design the new space,” Kozak said. A larger room for regular yoga classes will be part of the addition. “I’ve always wanted to have yoga,” Kozak said. “There was a need for it. I’m excited to offer it.” She said classes will mainly focus on traditional Hatha and Vinyassa yoga disciplines and will include stretching, exercise and meditation for all levels. “We’re all shapes and sizes here,” Kozak said. With a background in banking and a degree in both business and psychology, Kozak brings her two worlds together for her clients’ benefit. Offerings at Soul Purpose include energy medicine, massage, reiki, meditation, aromatherapy, acupuncture, generational healing, psychic development, mystical oracle readings, reflexology, sound therapy, quantum healing, plus classes and trainings in some of these disciplines, and more. There will also be an interfaith chapel at the new site. While Kozak, an ordained minister, has a “devotion to Mother Mary,” she said the chapel is non-denominational and available to people of all, or no, faiths. “I’m more expansive,” Kozak said. “I work with people whatever their belief system.” She’s also a spiritual medium and said she’s been intuitive her whole life, seeing angels and helping to interpret their meaning for others. “They’ve been a consistent presence in my life,” Kozak said. “They really try to help us get back on track. They can come as the voice of intuition.” Bridging the holistic world to the mental health and medical communities, Kozak, a clinical aromatherapist, works with physicians, nurses, dentists and others. “I bring professionalism to the spiritual world,” Kozak said. Kozak said she’s excited to be growing Soul Purpose once again and expanding spiritual services. “Sometimes, it’s surreal to see your vision manifest into reality,” she said. “I hope it inspires others to further their dreams. Nothing is impossible.” A free introductory yoga class will be offered on Friday, Jan. 3, from 6:30 to 8 p.m. A regular yoga schedule starts Monday, Jan. 6. An open house will be planned when the new site is open in roughly February or March. For now, Soul Purpose will continue at its present location, 1225 GAR Highway.
Article written by Deborah Allard – Herald News Staff Reporter This was copied from The Herald News website and is reprinted exactly as it appeared on January 2, 2020.
A line in the book Body Centered Psychotherapy that still moves me is:
“It is most useful when we commit to moving beyond our personal limits – beyond the insane sources of useless suffering – to the full expression of who we are and what is possible.” -Ron Kurtz
After this sentence Kurtz goes on to talk about how our core material goes deep, that “organizing beliefs are held firmly and defended strongly”. He writes about how trying to force change to these beliefs would surely fail. This really resonated with me personally. I have studied different healing modalities over the past eighteen years. On some level I was searching for my own way of rewriting some of my limiting beliefs. Through the years I learned there really wasn’t just one “miracle modality”. I resonated with some more than others, but found that the miracle is truly within oneself.
The biggest road block can be looking at your own feelings, beliefs, the events and memories that have shaped and organized your life and how you respond to it. The key for me was evaluating this in a heart centered space. Being able to move from a cerebral dissection of my life to truly feeling it without criticism and judgment towards myself and others.
I graduated from a Healer Training Program and Energy Medicine School in 2011. It is founded by Rhys Thomas. One of the big aspects of this training was learning about Energetic Profiles. He termed it the Life Purpose Profiling System and it is based on the work of Dr. Alexander Lowen and Wilhelm Reich. Rhys threw his own expanded vision and study of it into it and coined it The Rhys Method/Life Purpose Profiling System. It combines the psychological profile of personality with the energetic and physical characteristics of a person to create a comprehensive system. We were taught this model to help ourselves by using the profiles as a map to help navigate our lives, to use as a tool to deal with problems and the stresses that are in all our lives. Each of the energetic profiles has a shadow side (defense) and light side. We are thrown into the shadow side as part of our training as we need to experience and accept this aspect of ourselves before we can embrace our light side fully. This method was so freeing and healing for me. These profiles are not seen as judgements but more of a way to discern the defenses that we are experiencing in our lives, and organizing our life by. Once I had a deeper understanding of my own profile, I was able to really dive in deeper and journey into the abyss within myself of what I like to call “Loyalties to Dysfunction”. Some term this as Vows, Limiting Beliefs or Patterns. I see it as a Loyalty to Dysfunction as when looking at where the belief or behavior originated, I would often find it originated as a way of keeping me safe. I created a loyalty to a behavior that kept me safe, or got me praise, or love even if the behavior in the long run caused self-harm. Some were passed down from generations before me and I was expected to keep it going because that was how it always was.
Working with my personal devotion to self-healing, I have found it is the whole process that needs to move along. The experiences that created your beliefs need to go from being talked about, to being felt, to being studied, to being expressed, to being understood. From my own experience in life in psychotherapy, holistic healing, personal relationships, my traditional psychology degree, I can see a pattern of how “just” talking sometimes doesn’t get you far. A lot of times talking can keep someone in their wounds, or you may even meet the person in their wounds and that is where the relationship will stay, or that is where the person will stay. .
A few years ago, I sought out my counselor again as I still had issues and resentments that kept creeping up on me that was really interfering with my self-esteem and self-worth. I had done a ton of energy work, body work, and self-study. I had made a lot of progress, but couldn’t seem to shake these deep seated feelings. This counselor was not a holistic counselor. I do feel he is deeply intuitive, and he is also very spiritual. He asked about my spiritual beliefs and incorporated this into my work. Going to see this counselor shifted me. I am forever grateful. He did use hypnosis on me to do inner child work. He hypnotized me and brought me into the future to see the Jessica who is free of any issues and full of joy and peace. He had me embrace her and take in those qualities. He then brought me back to meet my inner child. I was greeted by an angry child, who was deeply hurt and wounded. It was here I had a deep realization to the origin of some of my loyalties to dysfunction. My Inner Child’s self-esteem was low and she was angry. She was tired and felt like she couldn’t let her guard down. I went over and picked her up onto my lap. I told her it was okay and that all was well now. I embraced her and she melted into me. She knew that the adult “Jessie” would handle life now and she could at long last rest. This work was so incredible to my healing and being able to let go.
“The Child and it’s experiences built the world view and the self-image. The child was the map maker. So, in contacting and working with the child, you have the possibility of changing those maps and the person who is now using them.” -Ron Kurtz.
I realize that all of our defenses, and the way we organize our experience is rooted in our inner child. We must all be one big group of children interacting in the world.
The purpose of this blog is to encourage each of you to be fearless in your pursuit to your own healing. It isn’t an easy journey. You get afraid, you avoid, you procrastinate. Sometimes you need a break, sometimes you get aggravated and negative and whine about why you don’t need to do it. What matters is that you don’t quit and you keep your focus. It is a lifetime’s journey but one that is so worth it. You have more peace in life. You have an awareness and an appreciation of how you became the person are today. You also will understand that you have a unique purpose in your life. All of us including those that are psychotherapists, healers, spiritual teachers, etc. all have loyalties to dysfunction. Not one of us is singled out. It really is just choosing to look at it with an open heart and loving all of yourself even the parts that have limited you.
I recommend these book links if you are interested in working with your inner child to heal and also if you are interested in understanding the Profiles: