My Life With My Spirit Guide Purple Rose

I get asked often by my clients “Jess how do I know who my Spirit Guides are?”.  It is one of the most commonly asked questions I hear.  It was one I used to ask myself even though the answers always were right under my nose.  We have more than one Spirit Guide.  They help us with certain parts of our lives.  For this blog I will focus on my relationship with one of my main guides who calls herself “Purple Rose”. My journey with Purple Rose has been an interesting one.  She has revealed herself slowly to me over the past 26 years and we have developed such an amazing relationship.  I am writing this blog and sharing our relationship to show how sometimes our guides give subtle hints of their presence and sometimes completely bonk us over the head.

In 1995 I discovered the book “ Ask Your Angels” by Alma Daniel which had opened up a whole world for me of angels and spirit guides.  I had been having spiritual and intuitive experiences since a small child but never quite understood them.  I have never felt alone.  I have always felt as if there was a presence with me.  A comforting presence but I never had understood why or could describe it to anyone.  I read this book and it brought a lot of meaning and explanation to my life.  It also brought grounded exercises and an organized approach for a beginner to start to navigate this new journey.  It fit some pieces together for me and gave me some explanations to my childhood experiences. At that time I was unaware that there were even teachers or classes of such topics in the world so I was pretty reliant on finding books and learning on my own.

At the time I was 19 years old and I would light my candle and say my prayers for protection  and open up my journal and write the question Who is my spirit guide or spirit guides?  What message do you have for me today?  How can you help me with my life?  This went on for quite a few years.  I often got very similar messages of support and encouragement.  I would find  I  would doodle a flower or rose while channeling in the journal and write next to it “purple flower, purple rose”.  I would dismiss it thinking it was too generic or cliché.  Her name was always right there but it didn’t sink in.  

Fast Forward about 5 years.  At this time I am working at a Credit Union working as a Home Equity Loan Department Supervisor.  I was a Level 2 Reiki Practitioner at the time and still very much a baby healer. I had just worked through lunch and ate at my desk.  We had all ordered from a local pizza place and I had my napkin from there on my desk.  I was going to get back to the loan I was underwriting when all a sudden this energy overcame me.  I knew I was receiving something important and I had to write it all down.  I grabbed the pen closest to me which happened to be a red pen and that pizza napkin.  I started jotting down what was coming to me.  I was told I would have a holistic wellness center and that I would teach classes there along with others and have services offered there like reiki, acupuncture, meditation, holistic counseling, energy healing and more that I would come to understand in the future.  The purpose of this place would be to raise consciousness on the planet one person at a time and the name of it would need to be called The Soul Purpose.  

I sat back as my surroundings came back into focus and looked at what I had written.  I was like huh that is interesting.  At that time in my life it was really hard for me to see that.  I was in love with Reiki and knew I wanted that to be in my life but I was young and ambitious and really focused on a career in the financial industry.  I didn’t even know holistic centers were a thing! I didn’t have anything to frame it around in my mind or compare it to.  I knew of smaller places like where I had taken my reiki training but what I had written down had just appeared a bit daunting to me.  It was far out of reach and I didn’t understand why I needed to name it The Soul Purpose when I could come up with so many other trendier sounding names!

Over the next few years go on I go on to get my Reiki Master Training and continue studying books on meditation and energy medicine.  I moved up to the Boston area as I got a new position in a bank managing mortgage operations.  I was about 26 years old at the time and decided to create a vision board which I kept up in my little apartment at the time. I put the Soul Purpose and all the information from the napkin onto that vision board.  During that time I also started to volunteer at a place called Open Doors weekly at their Healer Evenings, getting experience in offering energy healing to people who came every week.  I started to connect with other people in the community and also see that there were holistic centers out there.  I started to have a framework for the vision. During this time and over the next couple years I would also continue with my channeling in the journal, continuing to get encouraging and supportive messages from my “unknown” spirit guide who would sign her name Purple Rose or The Purple Rose.  Her messages were consistent and supportive.  She started to tell me I would have a center but start it out slowly to ease into it so I could believe more in myself and see that it could happen. I started to consciously pray and think about starting a business of my own.  It was to do Reiki.  At the time I couldn’t see anything else as I hadn’t branched beyond it but I was allowing my mind to branch out.

A year and half goes by and I meet my ex-husband and we start dating and after a year we get engaged.  I move to Dighton and plan our wedding and we also buy a house.  I get a job closer to home at a different bank as an officer managing mortgage wholesale operations.  As we move into the house it dawns on me that there is a nice in-law type set-up to the house that has its own entrance with parking.  It was a nice size room that I could set up for Reiki treatments and then have another area for small classes.  This is where The Soul Purpose was born!  I didn’t call it The Soul Purpose at first.  I called it Jessica’s Reiki Healing because at the time that is all it was.  I started off slow with 1 client, which turned to 2, which turned to a few a week.  I developed a consistent part-time practice while working full time at the bank.  I loved doing Reiki!  I continued my channeling with Purple Rose and started to refer to her by that name even though I felt it was just too easy of a name! She would state I should start to expand my training to aromatherapy and other healing modalities so I can bring it into my new business and expand my service base.  I did go and get training in Aromatherapy, Herbalism, and Thetahealing.  Then I changed the business name to The Soul Purpose.  It felt right and I started to get busier.  

Then I went with a friend to an appointment to see a Medium at a gallery style event.  The Medium came up to me and said you have a spirit guide named Purple Rose! Well that confirmed it! That was her name! I was so excited and felt silly and ashamed that I didn’t just believe in myself over the years for all the times she consistently and patiently told me her name.  I went home and pulled out my composition books from over the years and saw the consistency of her giving me her name with the image of the little flower I would doodle.  She would tell me to open up and trust in my gifts and gently push me.  I felt so grateful for her. I felt excited!  I could feel my vision for The Soul Purpose started to form with her gentle nudging.  I wasn’t sure how but I felt determined to continue on.  While I was successful in my banking career and grateful for it I felt most fulfilled while working in the healing arts and assisting others on their healing paths.  It was assisting me on my own healing path.  

Jessica’s Purple Rose that she keeps on her mantle at home

In August of 2006 I found out I was pregnant with my daughter Sarah.  During this time I did a weekend training in Magnified Healing and felt the presence of Purple Rose even closer.  She encouraged me to just keep on the path.  She nudged me to then contact my Reiki instructor and move forward in the path of Reiki Master Teacher training which I did.  I did most of that apprenticeship through my pregnancy knowing that I wanted to bring the gift of Reiki to as many as I could.  My teacher mentored and taught me a lot about the world of energy and even creating a deeper relationship with our guides.  During this time I did a spirit guide workshop with her to try and connect deeper.  My teacher brought us through this deep guided meditation and I could feel myself going into this deep space of relaxation and quiet.  As the teacher guides us to connect and meet our spirit guide I find myself in the middle of a beautiful galaxy with nebulas and planets and this deep purple color to sky.  I seemed to be held in a glass box in the middle of this galaxy.  I did not feel panicked but felt safe, held and contained.  I was just held in this container in the galaxy looking out, marveling at the beauty but didn’t get to “meet” my spirit guide or talk to anyone.  Being human and having an expectation I felt disappointment at not being able to meet a “being”.  I wanted to meet Purple Rose or one of my spirit guides and while I had this amazing experience of being held in the middle of a beautiful galaxy I didn’t understand what it all meant.  

Some time goes by.  I left the bank to pursue The Soul Purpose full time and raise my daughter in January 2007.  She was born in May of 2007.  I was at home with her and was sitting at my computer preparing a brochure for a workshop. I typed out “THE SOUL PURPOSE” and then before my eyes the words scrambled and changed using the letters of the soul purpose to look like this:

THE SOUL PURPOSE

PURPLE

ROSE

I rubbed my eyes and was like what just happened!  She used the letters that make up my business name to write her name.  All the letters in The Soul Purpose are letters in Purple Rose.  I realized at that moment that she named The Soul Purpose and this was why it had to be named that!  I felt such love pour into me at that moment.  Such expansiveness.  I still experience this all the time and I know it is her.

As the years went on The Soul Purpose has grown.  I moved it out of the Dighton home location in October 2010 into a location in Somerset on 138 where I was for about a 1.5 years and then outgrew it.  Then I moved to the plaza where I am currently located in Swansea and was in a 750 sq ft unit which I outgrew in another 2 years and moved to a 1500sq ft unit in the same plaza.  There the Soul Purpose was able to grow over a 6 year period in leaps and bounds.  While there one of my teachers came and did a Sound Healing Experience and I decided to lay on the floor and join in.  I easily went into a deep meditative state and felt so relaxed.  All of a sudden I felt myself grow so expanded and elevated.  I felt I was encompassed and part of a whole universe.  I was living and breathing in planets, mountains, oceans, trees, and felt so vast and limitless. I was interconnected with everything.  At the same moment I felt so tiny and small as a grain of sand and insignificant yet so loved, peaceful and held. It was all so beautiful and awe inspiring.  There was some piece of me aware that my physical body was on the floor and ok but I enjoyed this mystical experience while it lasted. I understood in that moment how significant and insignificant I was and it was amazing.  I will come back to this as it will all tie in at the end.  

Fast forward to the present time.  I am in the same plaza but The Soul Purpose is now in a 2250sq ft unit that has been built for us and I can see even that won’t be able to accommodate what it is continuing to grow to be. I have been feeling Purple Rose stepping forward even more wanting to reveal more of herself to me.  I have never felt like I have seen her true form and when I would ask her she would come through cloaked in purple.  I finally said I feel it is time to see you! I feel you are very vast and big and don’t want to frighten me.  I started to get imagery of galaxies again and started to wonder if her form was more of a non-form and that of a void for source and consciousness to awaken.  I asked before bed one night to see a form of her in my dreams. That night in my dream I was underwater and saw a beautiful gigantic blue octopus that I was not afraid of.  I could breathe yet I was under the water.  I looked into her eyes and saw this swirling energy of purple that looked like galaxies but she exuded such love.

I woke up and felt such intense love. Then I had the thought “Wait! The Purple Rose is a gigantic octopus!!”.  Throughout the day I felt her presence even stronger, whispering to me that more growth is coming and I would be stepping into even more aspects of myself I had previously denied.  She would help me with a future program I would be teaching at The Soul Purpose and the book I need to write.  I am currently creating a writing nook in my house because of this!  She started to let me know she had many forms and that she does encompass a galaxy and a Purple Rose Healing Void, so to speak. Rather than travel up and outward to the galaxies, she goes down through the deeper part of the oceans where people don’t like to travel, she says, and goes through the dimensions that way.  She says I don’t have to understand all this right now but that her biggest goal is helping and participating in the great awakening of humanity.  She was the galaxy I experienced in that spirit guide meditation when I was sitting in the glass box waiting to meet a being in physical form.  She was the experience I had while in deep meditation while feeling I was a whole universe yet also so small as a grain of sand.  Purple Rose has helped me create The Soul Purpose and grow it to what it is today, but in growing the Soul Purpose it has also led me down the path to my own deep transformational healing. I find as I grow the Soul Purpose grows and for that it has been an amazing journey. Leave it to me to have a very unique spirit guide but I feel so lucky to have her! I hope she feels lucky to have me!

I recently had someone by the name of Leslie Baker do my spirit art.  She didn’t know me and she spends the whole day channeling your spirit art painting and then does a reading over the phone. She is amazing!!!  She was so amazing that I messaged her and asked her if she had ever channeled a spirit guide before.  She said no but was willing to try.  I did not tell her much about Purple Rose as I wanted to see what came through.  Purple Rose came through really strongly to Leslie and Leslie had to block off a weekend to manage her energy.  She got amazing messages but most of what was amazing was her portrait which validated everything for me.  Below is my spirit art portrait from Leslie and the Portrait of Purple Rose.  I also included the below info on Leslie if you are interested in connecting with her.  I am teaching a Spirit Guide Class on Tuesday Oct 19th in-Person and Online.  I will also be recording it so if you would like to attend or purchase a copy of the recording contact us at infoforthesoulpurpose@gmail.com.

THE PURPLE ROSE SPIRIT GUIDE PORTRAIT
JESSICA’s SOUL ART PORTRAIT

Thank you for reading.,

Jessica Kozak Shaw  

Leslie Baker’s info:

Scheduling :

https://app.squarespacescheduling.com/schedule.php?owner=24192862

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Autumn Equinox Blessing

The Autumn Equinox is a significant time of year to honor the harvest. Whether that be a harvest of the things you physically planted or the harvest of your spiritual, emotional, and mental work and intentions for your life path and healing that you set for yourself.

ancient cultures perceived a powerful deeper message for humanity in the cycles of life and nature and in the changing seasons. Indigenous cultures recognized elemental wisdom and understood that the Winter Solstice, Spring Equinox, Summer Solstice, and Autumn Equinox; illuminated stages of an inner spiritual journey – a spiritual cycle that the individual takes within themselves. They often celebrated these cycles.

The autumn equinox arrives on Wednesday, September 22, 2021. Spiritually speaking, fall represents the Harvest time of year, a time to acknowledge growth and expansion within our beings. We honor the cycles of our lives and the journey we are on.

On the Fall Equinox you may want to honor all that you have in your life and shift your consciousness from one of something you are fearful or avoidant of to stepping into courage to expand into a space of truth and authenticity. This will give us space as we head to the winter solstice to rest and grow into this space of truth to step fully into it in the spring equinox and summer solstice. Honor the autumn equinox today through a small ritual or ceremony. Such as lighting a candle, giving thanks, and speaking your gratitude for all that you are.
💛Rev Jessica Kozak Shaw

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How to Anchor In Your Own Peaceful Center When You Are Empathic

We are living in turbulent times. Those of us who are Empath’s are feeling everything. In my practice I am having clients  who never identified as empaths having a hard time filtering out the chaos. The energy surrounding and within our world is very out of balance as most of us know. It is hard to shield ourselves in this environment without fully isolating and ignoring everything. My guides give me an image of myself underwater in a shark cage as a Great White keeps ramming into it. 

The cage would represent my protective boundary and the Great White the Chaos of the world continually battering against the shield. While the shield holds I am getting rattled around and shaken. I think many of us are feeling this way. An anxiety we can’t shake.  Some of my clients describe it as a feeling of impending doom. 

We are witnessing much that we have zero control over so now it is very important to focus on our personal lives, families and navigating ourselves into the calm center of the storm.  In that calm center we anchor into our own peaceful center.

Here are some survival steps for getting to your calm center.

  1. Limit your exposure to the media/news. I feel it is important to stay informed and not be ignorant to what is happening but to surround ourselves in it to much makes it appear the whole world is on fire and burning. Fear and helplessness takes over and nothing good comes of that. There are still also good things happening in the world! Creating a balance is helpful. I make a point to read about something uplifting when I need a break. We all need a break! 💛
  2. Add an extra layer to your energy Bubble! Now is the time for reinforcements lol. I have had to add an extra layer of protection around my daily energy field. I also have stabilized it with anchors to hold it steady to the ground so it won’t shake from the chaos as much. I am able to move through the emotions I feel much faster and navigate what is mine and what is not. I may have to reinforce it more often than usual but that is ok. What ever you use to shield yourself add some extra reinforcements.
  3. Rest and Self-Care – Sometimes Self Care Feels like a chore and resting feels impossible. It won’t work if it feels like a chore or too much effort. Now more than ever we are feeling more tired and drained. Simple tools like a nice walk outside in nature, a soak in a hot bath with epsom salt, a shower with a salt scrub, or even just 5-mins of deep breathing can make a big difference. Even certain chores like washing the dishes can shut the mind off and be meditative. I don’t like washing dishes but something about the water running and the mindlessness of it calms the mind. Coloring, painting, reading books are other ways of turning the mind off.  A little bit of self-care and rest will go a long way. Don’t burden yourself with an endless task list of self-care requests then feel guilty when you don’t meet all the demands. It is self-defeating. This is a time of being gentle with one-self.

Here is Prayer you can use to help yourself during this time.  You can rewrite to fit your own personal spiritual expression. 

Holy Spirit of Universe shield and protect me in your healing energy. Assist me in letting go of heavy emotions and triggers I allow to my energy in today’s chaotic world. Move through my mind body and spirit bringing healing light to all things unbalanced and return me to my center. Forgiving myself and others for any misguided perceptions and returning back to right mindedness in present time. As I move forward one step at a time be my light in the dark guiding my steps allowing me to shine brightly in the darkness. Releasing fear of the unknown, of chaos, and darkness. Bring me back into my own personal truth and purpose for this life.

Thank You, And so It is ❤️

Join me for my class on Saturday September 11, 2021 1:00-3:00PM “Becoming a Skilled Empath”. For more info email us at infoforthesoulpurpose@gmail.com

🔥❤️Rev Jessica Kozak Shaw

Owner of The Soul Purpose

My Personal Experience With Covid-19

My Personal Covid-19 Experience 

By: Jessica Kozak Shaw

The past year ended with my testing positive for Covid-19 on Friday Dec 18, 2020. The day before, while doing a virtual session via zoom, I had what felt like a coughing fit as if I was choking on my own saliva. It felt odd and weird. It felt like a ticklish choking sensation that wouldn’t go away. I grabbed some cough drops, which allowed me some relief, so I could finish the session. Oddly, this weird cough didn’t go away. Acouple of hours later, after my last virtual session, I said to my husband that I felt very tired, queasy and I needed to sit down. When I took my temperature and saw I had a temp of 100.3, I was not surprised. As the evening wore on, massive body aches,a headache and an upset stomach came upon me. I went to bed hoping for the best but fearing the worse. In the morning I felt even sicker so I cancelled my day of clients and called my doctor. At this point I was really hoping I picked up a bug but that it wasn’t Covid-19. 

I am very careful at The Soul Purpose where I enforced a strict protocol of mask wearing, disinfection, temp checking, and handwashing/In my personal life, I limit my contact to immediate family and I am extremely careful when I go out. I do not go out to eat, out for drinks or socializing…ever. It is because of my cautious measures that I am perplexed as to where I could have picked up any kind of bug, let alone Covid-19, but I did. After thinking back to the previous 8 days, taking inventory of where I had been – The Soul Purpose, CVS, the grocery store and home– I remain unsure of where I contracted this miserable virus. As I waited for my doctor’s call I replayed my recent whereabouts over and over in my mind.

When my doctor called me, she identified my symptoms as Covid-19. It was that direct. So she arranged for a test that sameday and warned me the results would take a few days to come back. I immediately quarantined as did my husband and daughter. When the realization of what was happening hit me I became fearful for my loved ones, especially those that live with me. I was also worried that I had unknowingly exposed any number of people to this novel virus. Anxiety led to visions of ruining Christmas for my family and other people’s families. Soon I was desperate to do something proactive, anything to fight back!

I pulled out my essential oils and deferred to my clinical aromatherapy and herbal training. Determined to keep this virus at bay, I set up my diffuser using blends of Clove, Cinnamon, Eucalyptus, Ravensara and Thyme to blast throughout the house.I also started drinking 2 quarts of herbal tea a day including nettle leaf, hyssop, mullein leaf and skullcap. 

I then reviewed my vitamins and supplements. I had been on Vitamin C, D and Zinc as a preventative but my doctor made modifications. My daily Vitamin D went up to 5000 IU, Vitamin C (Ester C) up to 2000 (anymore would upset my stomach) and she upped me to 100mg of Zinc. I was also put on baby aspirin as a precaution, Zyrtec, Mucinex, and Pepcid.


Through the weekend I suffered with a fever, again reaching as high as 103 degrees. I experienced severe body aches, leg pain, the worst headache I have ever experienced, vomiting, nausea, diarrhea, chest pressure and crippling fatigue. Sounds like a lot of fun doesn’t it? While I suffered these miseries it occurred to me I had never experienced anything like this before. This sickness felt so very different with its random symptoms popping up unpredictably. Throughout these days I kept up with my healing protocol including self-healing and having friends, colleagues and students sending me healing energy as well. I could barely eat (only small amounts of oatmeal) so I stayed focused on my hydration. I managed to keep small amounts of oatmeal in. 

On Monday, December 21st, the phone call from my doctor brought news that I tested positive for Covid-19. I was not surprised but it still felt like a punch to the gut when reality hit. I was instructed to continue with the medical instructions I was previously given and to keep isolating. I have to admit my mind went a bit off kilter when I thought about how I had the novel virus and how freaky and weird it was. And then the panic hit when my doctor recommended my husband and daughter get tested. My daughter had some nausea and body aches but otherwise she was okay…or was she? My husband seemed fine but…. Thankfully both of their tests came back negative and they remain virus free to this day.

I don’t know how my husband and daughter didn’t catch the virus as we live in a relatively small house and share one bathroom. Yes, we were careful but so are other people in this situation and they do not fare as well. I do believe it was the diffuser of essential oils that I had going constantly. This is not something that people who are not Aromatherapists would think to do and, in my mind, it made a difference. Also, as an herbalist, I made them drink herbal infused tea regularly. And they too were put on a new regiment of supplements. 

The next thing in the Covid-19 experience is contact tracing. I learned through contact tracing that every person I contacted during the 8 days before I became symptomatic did not have this virus. I also learned that no one contracted it from me. This experience reminded me of just how many people we contact in our regular lives without really thinking about it. My anxiety level decreased considerably as soon as I knew that I did not inadvertently sicken anyone. That is a huge relief to me.

I often think about where I caught Covid-19 but I still do not know. I caught it somewhere and I can speculate about whereuntil the cows come home, but I will never really know for sure. They categorize a case like mine as “community spread.” I just call it mystifying.  However, knowing that I did not spread it any further is something I do know and it is this glimmering light that I try to focus on in my darkest moments.

It took about 7 days for me to start to feel some relief from my mixed bag of symptoms which just happened to be Christmas Day (A small Christmas miracle in my mind). I had a bit of anappetite and, overall my peaceful day home with just my immediate family was as good as could be expected. From that point, my symptoms started to get a little better each day with the exception of the fatigue. The fatigue did not lessen at all no matter how much I rested. This was both frustrating and disappointing (and still is).

About a week later, on Jan 2nd, I started to feel crummy again. Back came the body aches. I also had tightness and pressure in my chest with a cough and pain in the diaphragm and ribs. Afever popped up again and my heart rate became elevated. I had heard about cases where the sickness got better before coming back full force and I feared this was happening to me. It was a tough night – physically and mentally.

The next day I put a call into my doctor and she had a great many questions. Her concern was that I had developed pneumonia. Apparently that is how my body was acting; with signs of an infection mixed with classic Covid-19 symptoms. She prescribed an antibiotic and a rescue inhaler. She wanted me to keep in touch and urged me to go to the hospital if my breathing became more problematic. She commented thatbecause I have no secondary health conditions and I am overall a very healthy 45 year old woman that these things work in my favor. I guess this was her way of giving me inspiration.

Fast forward 3 days and my symptoms are worsening. This, I know, is not a good sign. I find it painful to breathe, as if I am wearing a corset that has been laced way too tight. My sternumfeels bruised, like someone had kicked me. My chest feels like there is an elephant standing on it. My fever is 101 and my lymph nodes are so swollen I have pain in my groin, neck, and jaw bone. I have leg pain that is so intense it keeps me from sleeping. Once again, I call the doctor. After she consults apulmonologist she tells me to go to the Emergency Room as there is concern that I have had a Covid-19 relapse including an infection. There is also concern about blood clots; another covid-19 complication. My oxygen levels, while not great, were not in the danger zone which gave me some relief. To calm myself I practice the deep meditative breathing techniques I use in meditation and while performing Reiki. 

The 6 hour long Emergency Room is a story in itself. While there I struggle with a fever, elevated pulse and high blood pressure (which is unusual for me). I look around and see other people in the same condition that I am in and get a firsthand experience in what it is like being part of a pandemic. For tests Iwas given an EKG, chest x-ray, and lots of blood was taken. My vitals were taken several times. After an extremely long and uncomfortable wait I finally meet with a Nurse Practitioner and Physician. They explain to me that my x-ray shows I have pneumonia and also what they call “Covid Spots”. “That’s just wonderful”, I think to myself. I learn my EKG is normal (yeah)and my bloodwork shows that I don’t have blood clots or any heart issues (whew). My blood work does show, however, I havean elevated white blood cell count which means I am fighting off a bacterial infection. She tells me they believe I have developed bacterial pneumonia and “Post Covid Syndrome. I am like Okayyyyy so what is Post Covid Syndrome ?????

Not everyone develops Post Covid Syndrome which means I have earned another statistical designation in the pandemic. I am about to learn what this means. (breathe in Jess, count, and release. Stay calm. Positive thoughts.) Rather than medical mumbo jumbo they cut right to the chase, Post Covid Syndrome is when someone continues to struggle with Covid symptoms because their immune system is over-reacting to the virus. This over-reaction causes a lot of inflammation and problems. So, they put me on a stronger antibiotic for the infection and a 5-day round of the steroid “Decadron” to help calm things down. They also tell me to continue the deep breathing technique even if it isuncomfortable as they are convinced that this is the main reason I was able to keep my oxygen level out of the danger zone.(Yeah, holistic healing methods!) I must admit I gloated a bit to see the doctors so impressed by my technique. Then came the usual… stay on all the supplements and meds my doctor had me taking, rest…blah, blah, blah. I also was continuing the herbal protocol but added in a tincture of pleurisy root and marshmallow. I changed my essential oil blend to “ Respir-aid”from plant therapy which includes oils such as peppermint, eucalyptus, cypress, pine and marjoram in a cool mist humidifier.

After 24 hours I did feel better. I still felt wiped out and exhausted but had no fever. The discomfort in my diaphragm was also considerably better. The steroids were working their magic! I was still not myself but I could breathe without discomfort. My doctor urged me to continue to rest as she was worried about a relapse due to an overworked immune system.So I continued to rest and do my best to get sleep.

The 5 days I was on the steroids were fine. Things were looking up.  I finished them on Saturday 1/9/21. Then, on Sunday 1/10/21, my symptoms started to return. Back came the fever, shortness of breath and diaphragmatic pain and discomfort. My heart rate became elevated again. My exhaustion was getting more severe. I had a headache with inflamed lymph nodes in the neck. The Covid monster was back and I was frustrated.  My hopes of recovery were slipping away fast and I could no longer see an end to my difficult journey. I was again advised to go to the ER if my condition worsened; I was determined not to.

Come Wednesday I am back on a telehealth session. This time I am put on a steroid inhaler with hopes that this will help. My friends also sent me some powerful energy healing virtually with energy that I firmly believe helped me. (I wonder what those ER doctors would think about this!)

As of now I am still running low grade temps and dealing with serious fatigue. By the afternoon, breathing becomes a bit toughbut my oxygen and pulse monitoring show I am doing fine. And yes, I faithfully do my breathing exercises. I am resting and continue to use steamy aromatherapy showers and herbal baths. I am now using Frankincense essential oil which helps the inflamed tissue of my respiratory tract. I speak to my doctor regularly…it seems they keep tabs on Covid patients. Although I am not exactly better I am no longer getting worse or backsliding which I am extremely grateful for. I am hopeful and feel lucky. Yes, I absolutely know, it could have been worse. 


Why am I sharing all this? I wanted to share my Covid experience because it is such a lonely and frightening experience but it doesn’t need to be. Anyone who reads this will realize that Covid patients share many of the same symptoms, problems, complications and fears. We feel helpless because this illness is frustratingly unpredictable. We are all scared for our loved ones with a tinge of guilt that we brought it into the home. We all rejoice if no one gets sick from us and are all broken-up if someone does get sick. We all know this virus is not like the flu or regular pneumonia even if some people insist that it is. Those of us that suffer with Covid -19 are not alone or helpless, we are fighters battling an illness that little is known about. That makes us warriors!

As a professional in the holistic medical field, I feel this virus leaves no room for friction between the holistic wellness vs. allopathic world. This virus requires us to combine all our knowledge and experience together to bring about the best healing we can find. This virus is unusual and not yet well understood.  For some reason it is gentle on some people and wreaks havoc on others. It is because it is so new and different that we must look toward different methods of healing with an open mind. If not now, if not during this horrendous pandemic, then when?

For the record, I am not a purist nor do I claim to be nutritionally superior because I take supplements and herbs. I do not claim my immune system is more efficient than the average persons because I am an Aromatherapist.  After all, if I had the ability to be a superwoman I would never have gotten the virus, right? No, I eat relatively healthy and integrate herbs and supplements into my regular health protocol. I am currently not on meds but am not averse to taking them if needed. I get annual medical and dental checkups. I also get regular acupuncture and energy healings. I am just an ordinary person who owns and practices as a Spiritual Healer and Holistic Energy Medicine Practitioner, at The Soul Purpose in Swansea, MA. I run a holistic wellness center and I believe…no, I know… we have a lot to offer!

During this harrowing medical journey, I’ve received lots of messages from well-meaning people. Some gave me much appreciated support and reassurance. Others offered advice or shared their own experiences. Oddly, some people asked why I felt I “attracted” this virus! Well, I do not know how I got the virus and I certainly didn’t go about looking for it but it found me somehow. Although I am a healthy person I am not immune from illness and, perhaps, it was just meant to be.  

Of course, being positive minded I have found the silver lining in this experience!• Being unable to work during this time of chaos in our country, has given me time to reflect on things that I ordinarily would not have time to think about.• Not having any distractions aside from being ill has allowed me to be quiet and meditative – another reflective opportunity I value greatly.• I have been able to use, test and tweak my own self-healing modalities.• I have been able to ask for help and support – something I find difficult to do and need practice at doing!• I have been able to really discern how valuable my energy is and how easily it can be drained.• I have witnessed people’s fear and anxieties grow to unbelievable levels, becoming a super prominent focus in our country on so many different levels and for a range ofreasons. This has allowed me to think about ways to ease people’s fears and anxieties through spiritual and holistic healing. It has reminded me that The Soul Purpose has much work yet to do. I have been reminded about whom and what is important and that is the biggest gift of all.

Finally, I leave you with advice. I recommend, aside from caring for your personal health and making choices that work best for you, that you begin or continue practicing self-healing. For me it was deep meditative breathing, for you it may be something different. I recommend you practice safety, eat well, rest and be spiritual. I think essential oils and herbs help. Meditation, self-hypnosis and prayer are always good. Energy medicine, reiki, acupuncture….try it all!

As for me, I fall into a small percentage of patients (about 10%)that seem to develop Post Covid-19 syndrome. I will recover. I plan to incorporate my experience and the techniques that have helped me cope with this virus in my work including myaromatherapy and herbal programs, as well as, my meditation and self-hypnosis monthly classes. I will keep spreading the word through my many classes about holistic and spiritual healing (available in person or on zoom) only now I hold myself up as an example! I will share all I know. I will continue to stress that holistic and spiritual healing is not a replacement for medicine, but rather, is to be used in conjunction with it. I will continue to certify more people so they can teach others. And, someday and somewhere, just maybe there will be a diffuser in an intensive care unit puffing out an essential oil blend with lavender and mandarin so that the patients in the ward can get some much needed sleep! 

note: The picture is of East Beach in Westport that I took last weekend. My husband brought me to breathe in the salty air which really helped my lungs 💖

Please visit my website www.soulpurpose.health 

In Peace & Wellness
Jessica Kozak-Shaw 

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